Middle, Mi and Do

47:32, that's the length of the film Annie Hall I have watched within the two weeks, and it's just in the middle.

There are so many things in the middle: English novels, translation works, both vowels and consonents of a new language, a blog I keep reading for months, travel in Dalat, preparation for the next destination, further thinking for anchoring career for aesthetics and insights...

When one of my friends visited me today, I was very busy on working and then we had a coffee hurrily in the break at noon. I told her: "Look! How low the standard of quality I'm living is." Yeah, my personal time become valuable much than before. These days when I have to corporate with two Vietnamese workers for specific projects, I get up before 7:00 am, have breakfast, read my favorite book for a short time, then start to think of the daily tasks and working procedure for them. It takes some time but they depend on my assigns. It's like I am caring for two children and have to be responsible for preparation, otherwise, evrything would be in a mess.
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The extreme particular life style often inspires meanings and importance of what we are doing. These days, I review Arthur Jeon's book everyday concentratedly and slowly. Each time, I just read two or three sections with few pages. In fact, I have read the book more than three time since two months ago, when I bear craziness and uncontrolled emotions. You could said it's a kind of heal- either read wildly or sorrowfully. Now the new journey is also in the middle; I start to make lines by the sentences. I cannot help but feeling gratitude for such a teaching related to authentic and merciful ways of living.

While I only have few hours for self exploration and learning out of work, and everything is in the middle inevietably, I know I need deeper but also softer company from those...with cosmic beauty.